tears

a whole wave of emotions carry me into my room, to let that water go in a form of a waterfall. it drips, slowly from my eye to the table. my cheeks are starting to sting from that water. nothing i can do to stop it. anger, guilt, hatred but also love. emotions – strong emotions, which cannot be contained in me for long. a combination of any emotions comes out as confusion. a feeling i hate. it haunts me from day to night, dusk ’til dawn. it is uncontrollable. a soft blanket of it wraps me up warmly – but tight. unlike a quilt which gives comfort from the outside, this blanket slowly squishes the inside of me until it disappears, leaving a wave of despair, emptiness. the water still flows, there is no source just energy surrounding it. it appears out of nowhere, ending up leaving yellow stains on my pillow.